Fears.

Scared. Anxious. Bittersweet. I've never worried so much. So much uncertainty. We've been down this road before. We can do it. We've done it. So why do I worry? Too much at stake, so much to lose. I love you way too much. I feel so complete when I'm with you and hate knowing you won't be beside me for much longer. No kisses, cuddling, looking in each others eyes saying I love you. Listening to your heart beat was always my favorite thing. These are all things I'll miss so much. I just don't want to give any of it up. I know you won't be gone forever, but it's sure going to feel like it. As summer ends I get more anxious and fear so much more of how things may change. I know through it all my love for you will always remain the same, and I'm hoping thats enough to get me through this. I just want to spend all my time with you while there still is time. You're my everything. I'm in love with you. We'll be fine, as long as we have each other. Knowing that is what will keep me going. Always<3